Unlearning helplessness

Right now I’m putting a pet project on the back burner. Part of me feels defeated, it’s a really good idea. But it requires buy-in from others with whom I have a history. They’re known to deliberate and delay making decisions. I simply can’t risk my time.

Even thinking of the potential meetings triggers learned helplessness, honed from experience. I know that I have to safeguard my own mental health. So I’ll work on projects I can control with people who are engaged and decisive. Only when I’ve built up some momentum and resiliency, can I look back at that idea. By then, it might appear small.